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This is the section of Strive4Impact.com, where you can read, every day, something I wrote since I was 13 years old (1993).  Some of it's adolescent angst, but some of it is quite good, and I hope you'll agree.  What are we up to now? Currently, my wife and I are traveling the world and blogging our experience.  We may have been somewhere you would like to go, or maybe we could come to meet you?  Either way, you may find our reviews and advice helpful.  Check it out at http://www.CarrieAndJonathan.com

 

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Letter To God: 26, June 1995 »

In Mexico on Love

June 14, 1995
In Mexico on Love
Jonathan is 15

In my life, whenever I go somewhere that I don't know many people, I am always on the lookout for love; subconsciously afraid that if I am not watching and looking, I may miss or mess up the chance... not by much, but I'll just barely miss it.


When women have approached me with love, I become aware of necessity of attachment, of the potential for broken hearts, of the longing for someone who's not there; and these things which I have seen scare me. They scare me so much in fact that I have walked away from many opportunities which I have seen at love.

I look at others and see their happiness in/for/with each other, and although I know that I could have that kind of joy in someone else, I wonder if someone else could be that happy with me. And so I sit back, wish, and look out for love, but I remain lonely.

I am always on the lookout for love. However, when the opportunities arrive for me to give my love and receive love in return, I have become afraid.




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